Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

12. Experiences of the Inner and the Cosmic Consciousness

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I told you you were not to try to decide by your mind. You persistently go on repeating, “I must decide. I must decide. I must take a decision . I must take a resolution.” You are always repeating this I, I, I must decide, as if you knew better than myself and the Mother! “I must understand, I must decide!” And always you find that your mind can decide nothing and understand nothing. And yet you go on repeating the same falsehood.

I tell you plainly once again that all your so-called experiences are worth nothing, mere vital ignorance and confusion. The only experience you need is the experience of the presence of the Mother, the Mother’s light, the Mother’s force, and the change they bring on you.

You have to throw away all other influences and open yourself only to the Mother’s influence.

You have to think and talk no longer about energies flowing out and your energies and others’ energies. The only energy you have to feel is the descent and inflow and action of the Mother’s force.

These were my instructions and so long as you carried them out, you were progressing rapidly.

Throw all these incoherent false experiences away. Go back to the single rule I gave you. Open to the Mother’s presence, influence, light, force – reject everything else. Only so will you get back clearness (instead of this confusion), peace, psychic perception and progress in the sadhana.