Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
13. Opposition of the Hostile Forces
The attacks you speak of can come anywhere. It is an
attack of the nervous centres and on the nervous being by contrary vital forces.
The fact that it was not allowing you to come here and that it began to go when
you steeped yourself in the atmosphere and ideas of The Yoga and its Objects
is significant of its origin. As for the other symptoms they were amassing to a
height of the restlessness of the nervous being and are quite familiar in such
cases. The desire to run away somewhere is a very usual symptom. Hysteria is
also an attack by similar forces, but it is only 
one form; the attack need not take the appearance of any illness. The Doctors
usually consider it as a type of what they call neurasthenia, nerve-weakness;
but that simply locates the thing without explaining its real nature and cause.
In both cases, here and there, it was an attempt to come across your spiritual
life by creating a disability and state of disturbance in the vital-physical
part of the being. Anyhow the fact that you could not go from here and that the
whole thing could be removed by us at once as soon as you opened somewhere by
this feeling of sorrow at going shows that the spiritual life is stronger and
deeper within you, even when covered over, than the opposite forces at their
height. That is the main thing.