Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 1. 1933

Letter ID: 1102

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

April 16, 1933

Last night I was trying to concentrate in bed, with the eyes closed. I suddenly woke up and the first thought was that I had been able to concentrate for long, and it did not look like sleep as there was no dazed or queer feeling as one usually has in sudden wakings. I have no experience of what going inside is like. Maybe this is the thing?

[Sri Aurobindo underlined the last sentence.]

Yes, only not yet a conscious going inside – that has to come.

The rest of the night also passed in a kind of constant remembrance, but in between I had an unhappy dream which I completely forgot. I woke up in the morning feeling spiritless without any apparent reason. Then it struck me that it was perhaps the effect of the dream working beneath the surface.

Its effect – yes. But you ought to shake it off at once and not allow it to trouble you.