Second, I had to go to the pier1 with X as she was not feeling well and I came back depressed.Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
Volume 1. 1933
Letter ID: 1109
Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar
May 6, 1933
Mother, today after pranam as I raised my eyes, I could not but mark something different in your look, as if some surprise, some concern, even the suggestion of a reproach, was trying to express itself.
Not at all.
I feel it may be due to one of two reasons. First, I have been having vital thoughts. But when I realised they may be due to yoga, my mind settled down.
[Sri Aurobindo underlined “due to yoga” and put a question mark in the margin.]
Second, I had to go to the pier1 with X as she was not feeling well and I came back depressed.
The pier itself has a very bad atmosphere nowadays.
For which of the two reasons did you give me that searching look?
For neither. You looked depressed, so Mother looked at you,– there was no other search.
I feel much better when alone but sometimes I have to attend to X in her illness or I have to go to market with her. I wish I could do all this with a calm mind. I hope I am clear.
Quite and you are right – but I don’t see the way out for the moment – unless you can separate yourself within and put a guard of calm aloofness around you.
1 The old pier of Pondicherry which is now broken down.