Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 1. 1934

Letter ID: 1211

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

October 15, 1934

I notice that a definite and marked despair has come over me, making me realise constantly how limited and meagre are my powers and possibilities. Whatever I produce is most mediocre.

Even supposing what you produce is not something extraordinary – what does it matter? Do your best and leave it to the Power to improve your best.

I feel quite helpless and without force and energy, without aspiration or faith. I would like to know if and how one is responsible for such a condition. Shall I persist in meditation or try to replace it by some reading?

These things must be the result either of desires or of inertia or of vital restlessness. If you stop meditation, I do not see how you are going to get rid of these things. It is only by bringing in a higher consciousness that you can get rid of the habitual conditions of the old consciousness.