Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
Volume 1. 1934
Letter ID: 1217
Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar
November 7, 1934
For quite a number of days I was free from vital thoughts and impulses. But they seem again to raise their heads ...I sat down to meditate thinking that the wave would pass over my head if I plunged it deep down. The meditation was over when another huge wave swept me away, as it were.
Why these impulses after meditation?
They come in order to disturb or obstruct the meditation and if there are any results gained from it or about to be gained, to come across them.
I am trying to be silent within, but the mood of jocularity persists. Is it not, however, a sign of cheerfulness?
Not always – moreover the cheerfulness is vital. I do not say that it should not be there, but there is a deeper cheerfulness, an inner সুখহাস্য1 which is the spiritual condition of cheerfulness.
1 Sukhahāsya: smile of happiness.