Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 1. 1935

Letter ID: 1288

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

March 21, 1935

The Ost [ophthalmologist] said that M’s condition has improved. He has advised to give salicylates for past rheumatism.

All right – salicylate him as much as the Ost likes.

Queer! one has to be dosed not only for present and future but past ailments. Medicine like the Brahman transcends Time.

An inner unquiet is running for some days. It seems as if I would mightily like to have something, but don’t get it,– as if it is around me, but I don’t have it! Mother’s writing on the forehead [5.3.35] doesn’t manifest! And what about the universal? No sign of its opening its door to this poor fellow! Meditation, concentration, aspiration – everything is gasping! Let me have some stimulant drops, please.

Stop gasping and “smile a little”.

Well, if it is around you, it is bound to manifest – you have only to keep quiet and open yourself pleasantly.

You are seeking for mukti!! I thought you never cared for it.

That mukti I got ages ago without my wanting it.

B’s upper eye-lid is congested. Eye drops?

If he wants drops, drop – but nothing startling or violent, please. Mother suggests camphor lotion, but she does not know the proportion and it must be light. I suppose you have no “codex” – book of ordinances?