Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Volume 2. 1936

Letter ID: 1677

Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar

July 15, 1936

Jaswant writes: “Deepest Love to Sri Aurobindo. Do convey it if Papa writes blessings, if Jaswant comes up in memory.”

Don’t understand. What is to be conveyed? And how do the two ifs relate together or with the “convey”?

I have begun two poems, one came on top of the other. A rush of ideas invading!

Very good.

Please try if you can, to circulate some Force at night – 9 p.m., and afternoon, just when you regain your curvilinear proportions – 2.30 p.m.

There is no such regularity about curvilineation. However I will circulate whenever possible.

S has sent me the accompanying letter. I absolutely refuse to ask the Mother or give orders upon his chits for food, so I refer it to you. I can’t rely on him – here he asks for oil, but you had written that you had said no to oil. It seems to me if he takes oil and spices and greasy things before the bile is entirely out of his blood, it will be there for good. S has neither self-restraint nor common sense. His খেয়াল¹ is his guide. But are we to follow it?

... I am in sheer despair. I want to say – damn it all, damn it all. Let me –

Don’t damn, but lift up quietly.

¹ kheyāl: whim.

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