He had also syphilis! I consulted Valle, he advised serum injection...Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
Volume 2. 1936
Letter ID: 1741
Sri Aurobindo — Nirodbaran Talukdar
October 6, 1936
M’s urine was examined – contains pus; detailed report tomorrow. Now giving urotropine etc.
Those are the hieroglyphics on the Valle paper? They are not Greek to me, but Amharic.
He had also syphilis! I consulted Valle, he advised serum injection...
Christ! And yet you attribute the sufferings of these people to the Supramental Force!
By the way, what is happening, pray? Supramental descending? P is going fut. Some passing blood, some vomiting blood, another died devoid of blood!
It appears that P has recognised that his Purushottamhood was indeed all fut! He says he felt some evil forces making him do and say these things, but he was so helpless that he was forced to obey them! That is a fall from Purushottama heights, but a return to sanity, if only temporary – (but let’s hope it will increase). For that is evidently what happened.
All thought that he was doing serious sadhana.
Serious? You mean not to sleep and all that sort of thing? Well, it is just that kind of seriousness which brings these attacks – Earnestness of this sort does call down that kind of Purushottama or rather call him in – for it is a horizontal not a vertical descent.
Purushottama descended in consequence of the earnest sadhana and hence he was calling Sri Aurobindo to come and bow to him! What next?
Next? Perhaps he will want you also to come and bow to him and pummel you if you don’t.
Makes me shake to the bones!
Only the bones?
Already I am feeling awfully pulled down, on top of that M1 sits; and the Purushottama crowns them all. I ask myself – whither, whither are you going, my friend, and what awaits you?
Perhaps the Paratpara Purusha beyond even the Purushottama.
But why this pulled downness? You are not pulling down Purushottama or any other gentleman from the upper storey, are you? It is strain and want of rest, I suppose. Sleep, sleep! read Mark Twain or write humorous stories. Then you will be quite chirpy and even M won’t feel heavy to you.
1 A difficult medical case.