Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
Volume IV - Part 2
The thing in you which enjoys the suffering and wants it is part of the human vital – it is these things that we describe as the insincerity and perverse twist of the vital; it cries out against sorrow and trouble and accuses the Divine and life and everybody else of torturing it, but for the most part the sorrow and the trouble come and remain because the perverse something in the vital wants them! That element in the vital has to be got rid of altogether.