Sri Aurobindo

Letters of Sri Aurobindo

Kamala’s Correspondence with
Sri Aurobindo and the Mother

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Sri Aurobindo — Kamala Amin

March 15, 1933

Mother,

You have not replied to my question why I feel tired.

Is tiredness related to aspiration? What should I do to develop aspiration? I humbly pray at Thy Lotus feet to let me know about it.

A tired condition of the body brings tamas and it is the tamas that prevents the aspiration, because the mind gets inert also. The cause of the fatigue is not clear from what you have written.

It is by opening yourself and calling down the Mother’s force into you that you can get back the aspiration and get rid of the fatigue – whatever the cause of the fatigue may be.

Mother,

Today I felt that you are displeased with me.

No, Mother was not displeased with you. Why should she be?

Mother,

Today you were looking at me intently. When you look at me you take your face away from me, what you see in me – good or bad – I don’t know. I wanted to surrender myself more and more at Thy feet.

But the Mother always looks intently at people like that when she wants to see in them or put something in them. Why should you suppose anything unusual?

Sri Aurobindo