Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
4. The Mother in the Life of the Ashram
My dissatisfaction and inner struggle are constant. My eyes are constantly on the outer nearness of the Mother, of which I have none at the moment, and I am left out completely.
And if you had the physical nearness, you would be no happier or calmer so long as the inner being is unchanged. Those who do physically approach her have just the same difficulties and struggles as yourself and some have not even the experiences of peace etc. that you have.
Since all this is in me, it has been expressed. Now let it burn into ashes, never to rise again.
It would be most foolish to call back this meaningless delusion – for nothing can be farther from the actual and practical truth than to suppose that those who have a physical nearness to the 
Mother or have frequent physical approach are happier or more satisfied than others; it is not in the least true – or to allow it to prevent the progress of the inner peace. If you could only get rid of this delusion, nothing would be able to prevent the growth of the Peace and that inner nearness which alone makes people in this Asram divinely happy. Happiness comes from the soul’s satisfaction, not from the vital’s or the body’s. The vital is never satisfied; the body soon ceases to be moved at all by what it easily or always has. Only the psychic being brings the real joy and felicity.
8 September 1934