Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
4. The Mother in the Life of the Ashram
Yesterday and this morning after Pranam the idea came that the Mother was displeased with me, she was treating me coldly and that she was throwing me off. I tried to reject it, but it came back again and again. Of course, there cannot be any truth in it, but it kept repeating itself in feelings, not so much in the thoughts.
Certainly, there is not and cannot be any truth in such suggestions. Neither displeasure nor coldness are possible and 
throwing off is too absurd even to be considered. It is the attempt of the forces to set in vibration certain feelings habitual to the human vital – and it is a phenomenon that is constantly seen in the sadhana that when all substantial or even plausible reason is taken away from these vibrations, they are thrown upon the vital without any apparent cause or justifying reason by mere force of habitual response to some covert or subconscious stimulus. The one thing to do is to detach oneself at once or as soon as possible and see it for what it is and throw it off with decision.
26 December 1933