It's been hard.The Mother
Agenda
Volume 13
March 24, 1972
(Mother sees Sujata)
For the first time, early this morning, I saw myself: my body. I don't know whether it's the supramental body or... (what shall I say?) a transitional body, but I had a completely new body, in the sense that it was sexless: it was neither woman nor man.
It was very white. But that could be because I have white skin, I don't know.
It was very slender (gesture). Really lovely, a truly harmonious form.
That's the first time.
I hadn't the least idea, the faintest notion what it would look like, nothing, and I saw – I WAS like that, I had become like that. I thought Satprem should know, so he can note it down.
I don't know if I'll remember, that's why I am telling you. Because today is Friday and I won't see him till tomorrow. This way, I am sure I won't forget. You'll tell him, won't you?
Yes, Mother.
It's been hard.
Especially for food: it will be very different. I am BEGINNING to understand how it will work, but I don't know enough yet to describe it – I haven't had the experience, so I don't know.... Most probably, we will absorb things that don't need to be digested – there are some. But not food as such. For example, one idea these days is glucose (things of that sort). But I am not sure because I am just undergoing the experience. Once I have the vision of what to do, I'll do it.
Anyway, I wanted to tell you.1
Are you all right?... And Satprem?
Yes, Mother.
I'll see you tomorrow.
1 The recording of this conversation was kept by Mother's new attendant. Something strange was beginning to happen in that room, but neither Satprem nor Sujata understood what it meant.