Nirodbaran

Talks with Sri Aurobindo

Volume 1

10 December 1938 – 14 January 1941

13 August 1941

Nirodbaran: A says that seventeen days after he had started meditating, he saw during the night when he was asleep a young woman standing by his bed. Even in his sleep he felt very alert and was sure that the apparition was not good though the woman seemed to be sad and her eyes appeared to appeal for help. A says he heard a voice within him saying, “Go away.” He felt it was not his own voice and yet it sounded exactly like it. He now takes it to be a command from a deeper part of himself. The woman did not seem to hear it and became more appealing with her eyes. After a while she seemed to stir a bit as if she might go nearer the bed. The voice within A went on repeating all the while “Go away”, but when the woman seemed to be on the point of moving, it shouted with great force, “GO AWAY.” The woman crumpled away on to the floor without leaving any trace. A woke up, felt great relief, light and joy. He happened to look in a mirror in his room and saw a splendid light on his face.

Sri Aurobindo: His inner being has rejected sex altogether.

Nirodbaran: A has asked if the inner being means the psychic being.

Sri Aurobindo: It also means the inner physical, the inner vital and the inner mental being. The psychic is the inmost being.

Nirodbaran: A has asked if the gains in the inner consciousness are not to be worked out in the outer being.

Sri Aurobindo: Yes, the ultimate aim is to transform the total being and nature.

Nirodbaran: A has requested me to convey his gratitude to you and the Mother. (Sri Aurobindo looked pleased.)