and the whole vital movement was expelled. I am however not much perturbed for I feel that these movements obstinate as they are, are bound to disappear sooner or later as I feel them more and more as outside forces.Sri Aurobindo
The Mother
to Prithwi Singh
Correspondence (1933-1967)
5 October 1934
Prithwi Singh — Sri Aurobindo
Mother,
On the night of the 2nd inst. I had a wonderful experience. I suddenly woke up late at night and felt a power coming from over the head reaching up to the waist. I felt a very joyful sensation as it enveloped me in its sweet fold. There was very slight trembling and the bell-sound was continuously ringing in the right ear. I was calling Mother, Mother, and I felt your near presence and soothing caress. Gradually it passed away and after some time I again fell asleep.
Yes, it was the beginning of the descent of the Mother's force and the Mother's enveloping presence.
Last night there was a recurrence of sex-impulse accompanied by wet dream, but immediately it was controlled by my willed interference as I became aware and the whole vital movement was expelled. I am however not much perturbed for I feel that these movements obstinate as they are, are bound to disappear sooner or later as I feel them more and more as outside forces.
With deep devotion
Prithwisingh
They are certain to disappear — only things from the subconscient take some time to clear out.
Sri Aurobindo
5 October 1934