Sri Aurobindo
The Mother

to Prithwi Singh

Correspondence (1933-1967)

17 June 1960

Prithwi Singh — Mother

This is a confession and an expression of deepest gratitude. I had hoped that on the occasion of my birthday I might have an opportunity of speaking to You quietly about certain things of a personal nature. In the afternoon with so many people around, it was not possible. But apart from this I was not confident if I could avoid feeling very awkward due to bad eyes in coming to You through a large number of people who usually sit there. But I did one good thing. I pushed away all these thoughts from my mind and tried to remain quiet by remembering You.

The half-hour meditation I had in Sri Aurobindo's room at 1 p.m. due to the goodness of Champaklal was excellent. And a little over an hour and a quarter's waiting also did me good.

I came before You with Dyuman — and I made my pranam. I had a feeling that I was kneeling before a divine Presence which was majestic, omnipotent yet gracious. It is only the Divine who can lean so understandingly, so compassionately on man.

It was then that I had a most strange feeling — I could not see Your Face, but I could see at least something of the form and the wonderful pose in which You were sitting. It was awe-inspiring, yet full of compassion and love. It was then that I felt strongly the Presence of Sri Aurobindo. Also when You caressed my head with Your fingers just before I came away, I had the same feeling that it was Sri Aurobindo's hands with the added sweetness of the Mother-touch. Even now, as I recall the experience, I am overwhelmed with feelings of gratitude. I do not know if it was a purely mental imagination or if there was an iota of truth in it. It was an experience I cannot forget and I then fully understood with profound gratitude why purposely no interview was given.

When You gave me the two Prayer Flowers with the Rose, it was clear to me that my letter was read by You and perhaps the English poem also, although I do not actually know.

For all this I again express my profound gratitude to my beloved Mother.

Prithwi Singh

Prithwi Singh, my dear child,

Your experience, on your birthday, was concretely true.

Sri Aurobindo was there to bless you and I am glad you have been aware of it.

With love and blessings

Mother
17 June 1960