Nirodbaran
Correspondence with Sri Aurobindo
The Complete Set
As soon as I start meditating I lapse into sleep.
The sleep does come like that when one tries to meditate. It has to be dealt with, where that is possible, by turning it into a conscious inner and indrawn state and, where not, by remaining in a quietly concentrated wakefulness open (without effort) to receive.
Some days I feel intensely happy after doing pranam seeing your smiling face. On other days, there is calmness, but no joy. I thought it has something to do with your smile. Or does it depend on the state of the psychic being?
Don't start having that idea. It is quite untrue and those who indulge it raise vital reactions and imaginations in themselves and provoke much unnecessary trouble.
It is in yourself that there is the variation, not of the psychic being which is always all right, but of the rest, mind, vital or body.
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