Nirodbaran

Correspondence with Sri Aurobindo

The Complete Set

Last night I had a dream that you had come out of your seclusion for once; you were tall, quite young, but very dark. I began to wonder if this was Sri Aurobindo of former years!

No. It is not likely. It is probably some subtle physical form ― the one corresponding to the Shiva element in me. I have seen myself like that sometimes and it was always the Shiva formation.

The dream ended, but recurred soon after when I saw that you have appeared before my closed eyes exactly the same in appearance as we see you during Darshan. The vision remained for some time. The joy was not as intense as on a previous occasion. Was it because I made some intentional movements in order to test the strength of the vision.

Maybe. The consciousness was probably nearer to the gross physcal which is less responsive than the inner physical being.

Mother, it seemed by your looks at pranam that you didn't approve of some of my movements. Is it true?

No. It was probably some idea of your own that put that appearance on the Mother's looks.

Is it unnecessary to write about these dream-experiences?

No – it is useful to write.

14.12.1934