Nirodbaran
Correspondence with Sri Aurobindo
The Complete Set
Lack of interest and energy, disinclination to go to the hospital – this is my condition for the last few days. Curiously enough, whenever I take a cup of tea in the morning, these symptoms disappear. The whole system seems to buck up and I can do my work with full vigour. But if one has to rely on tea for such results!
Sympathise with you. There was a time when I was like that. Teaified cells – instead of deified.
But what's the reason? Vital resistance, physical inertia or fatigue or what?
Gandhian non-cooperating passive resistance of the vital disgusted to have to do the same thing regularly? Objection to rules – what? Discipline it.
The whole thing came to a climax. I wanted to go out for a walk by way of diversion but J said that the Mother takes away something from the vital.
Why on earth should she?
Everybody else seems to be working with so much interest, and look fit me. What a curious mixture am I!
Too many ingredients in too small and unstable proportions?
In any case, break this old being, Sir, and let something emerge, whatever it be!
All right; let's have a try. Hammer, hammer, hammer! Only the being in question is a little – shall we say, solid?
25.04.1935