Nirodbaran

Correspondence with Sri Aurobindo

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Somehow it seems the atmosphere is very heavy nowadays. How t suffered without any apparent cause – as if something had gripped me by the throat.

You should not allow yourself to be gripped by the throat – grip the other fellow's throat and fling him away.

It seems I am now the target of all depression. But why?

But why accept a depression which has no reason for its existence?

Is it, as our friend Jaswant says, the Ashram vital that affects me, or a personal one?

In Jaswant's case it is personal – in yours it looks like surrender to the “Ashram” or rather to the “anti-Ashram” vital.

But I have suffered enough, enough, more than my share. One can't go on, you know, with a spiritual dietary of 3 chief elements of food. Let me remind you that vitamins of experience are essential; otherwise nervous breakdown or deficiency disease is the result. You have a lot of things in your chaddar¹ as you said in a book...?² They say that you are now handling the lower vital and so the general trouble. True?

Subconscient vital physical – the lower vital is irrational, but not so utterly “without reasons” as that.

08.07.1935

¹ a cloth used as a head covering (and veil and shawl) by Muslim and Hindu women

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² Sri Aurobindo put a big question mark.

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