Nirodbaran
Correspondence with Sri Aurobindo
Second Series
1. Spirituality
The Man of Sorrows
V. Jeremiads and the Divine Force
One misgiving is pressing heavily on my soul. I sense and feel that the tone of your letters has suddenly become very grave, rough, stiff and gruff – the owl-like severity with which you had once threatened me. Have I done anything to deserve such punishment? Or is it because you are getting Supramentalised day by day that you are withdrawing yourself so? There must be a reason if my sense feel is correct. Well, if you want to press me between two planks and pulverise me.... Not that I want it, you know.
I think your sense feel has been indulging in vain imaginations, perhaps with the idea of increasing your concrete imaginative faculty and fitting you for understanding the unintelligible. As you have now much to do with mystic poetry, it may be necessary. But why object to being pulverised? Once reduced to powder, think how useful you may be as a medicine, Pulv. Nirod. gr. II. Anyhow disburden your soul of the weight. I am not owled yet, and my supramentalisation is going on too slowly to justify such apprehensions. Neither am I withdrawing, rather fitting myself for a new rush in the near or far future. So cheer up and send the Man of Sorrows with his “planks” to the devil.
08.01.1937